In times like this, I know who I am.
I know how it feels to love and let go. I know how it feels to work tirelessly for something and have it all plateau. I know when to let things be, after praying so hard I fell to my knees. I know that you cannot always rely on your own understanding because you couldn’t possibly do it all on your own, He is with you to make his admiration known.
I can’t see him but I feel him.
I felt him when I couldn’t see a way through, down to every last step leading up to my breakthrough. He is to remove all that no longer serves purpose in your life: to bless you with the discernment to recognize your strength in letting go and accepting His no.
This is a chapter of my life where God makes me strong before he makes me happy, where he tests my character and faith because he knows what’s to come and informs me that by his side, what’s to remain bright is the outcome. I’m fully committed to creating the life I seek, that anything at the expense of my peace is something to cease. You are worthy of love you shouldn’t have to beg for; your time is better allotted to the person you should be saying a prayer for. I’m not perfect and will make mistakes but I understand that they are accompanied by some sacrificially high stakes and so I devote myself to loving and pleasing you in the ways I know how- to spreading piety of your word here and now.
There’s hope to the tragedies you don’t understand and seemingly never end, that bringing up in discussion with Him, you’ll start to see things transcend. It won’t happen in your timing because it’s impossible to connect all the dots, rather realize everything you’re experiencing is aligned with your spiritual plot. You cannot lose in a Godly life you pursue; it is a redirection from events that seek to misconstrue, when you are intended to be guided to a purpose you can confidently take to. It’s not always easy. It’s not always fair. But living a life where you can count on him, guarantees that you are never alone in the moments that feel tirelessly dim.
I think it’s important to learn how to walk into people’s lives without walking out of your own. I think it’s important to go in search of life rather than love, entrusting in Him to give you the love you seek. I think it’s important to recognize that sometimes the person you love cannot give you what you need: that by doing so, you begin to dismiss important things that matter to you. I think it’s important for you to forgive yourself for not knowing what you know now. But most of all, I think it’s important to recognize when and where you want to grow + the steps you need to take to finally let go..